Loss and Love
My baby is dead.
I am a bereaved mother.
Trauma changed my brain.
I ask for help and choose healing.
I have suffered the anguish of grief.
I live with empathy and compassion.
I lost myself and my beliefs.
I discovered a more authentic me.
Friends disappeared and relationships gone.
Deep connections found amongst the commonalities in community.
I have triggers and suffer PTSD.
The helpline and shit club are there for me.
Sometimes I push it down.
But it asks to be let out.
Grief is love without a place to go.
So I find somewhere to put it.
Energy is not created or destroyed
Only transferred or transformed.
Where is your energy my baby?
I want to connect with you. To love you.
I look for you in the small ways.
I connect with you in the subtle ways.
I am always longing to give you so much more.
I will never be satisfied until I can kiss you, hold you.
I learn to live one day at a time with this void.
As long as I’m living
My baby you’ll be.
I love you Leia.
Photo credit: Melanie Pastuck
every story matters
The Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support Centre is a non-profit registered charity that helps families connect to support on their path to healing after pregnancy or infant loss. Families like yours can work with us and get support with a variety of services that hold space for your unique story. No matter at what stage of your parenthood journey you find yourself, your story will be heard here.
If you are ready to share your story, or you need help with your journey, get in touch with us.