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Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support Centre

Pregnancy & Infant Loss

Support Centre

The One That’s Missing

I had no idea 12 years ago that I would have a pregnancy loss story.  I have three daughters. 

Emelina passed away at 38 weeks due to a true knot in combination with her cord wrapped around her neck 4 times. I didn’t want to live when she died. I didn’t want to love, I didn’t want to suffer. I wanted to be “NORMAL”. I was angry at life. I was angry at anyone who had not suffered. I was not me and that was hard. It rocked my world. Her passing left me a shell. 

She should be here living with us.  She instead is in an urn in our living room. The daughter we know nothing about: her likes, her dislikes or who she should be. She had eye color. She will always be a newborn in my eyes.  This child was planned, celebrated and wanted, she died. And overnight I changed. I struggled to get out of bed, I did not want to be around anyone. I was reminded daily how badly I failed, how badly my body failed me… 

I was a career woman; I was passionate about my work and spent years working to almost achieve my goal. I lost my passion for it. I tried to find it again, a new city, new role… none of it worked. Until I could find a space that I could be the “ new” me, the one that allowed me to have moments of sadness and moments of joy. Where instead of feeling alone I felt heard, held and understood the first time in years. Changing the narrative, the support options and the silence around pregnancy and infant loss is how I parent this child I will never know. 

Pregnancy loss changed my life in all ways.  I am a grieving mother and the Co-Founder of the Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support Centre so no one feels alone.

 

Emelina Danyelle Kaluski 

February 21, 2012

every story matters

The Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support Centre is a non-profit registered charity that helps families connect to support on their path to healing after pregnancy or infant loss.  Families like yours can work with us and get support with a variety of services that hold space for your unique story. No matter at what stage of your parenthood journey you find yourself, your story will be heard here.

If you are ready to share your story, or you need help with your journey, get in touch with us.

For more stories like this, visit our Stories of Loss page
or visit #sharingmystoryofloss on Instagram

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50/50 Raffle

As part of our June 25th Run/Walk Sunday June 25, 2023 we are holding a 50/50 Raffle! Participating in this Raffle is open to everyone in Alberta. 

This is the perfect way to participate if you can’t attend the run/walk in person.

Want to join our Run/Walk? Visit this page

Book with Erin Winters

In order to book with Erin, please contact us at info@pilsc.org

NOTE: Refrain from providing detailed personal information when emailing us. Feel free to describe your challenges in brief, and leave out personal details that you only wish to share with Erin.